My sweet Mary Alice...I cant ever pretend to understand.....I never had the SI issues..though I can admit to emotionally "cutting" myslef to shreds.
Im sure the dinking doesnt help with the strength to stop yourself. Gosh I hate not knowing what to say.
Sick or not...I say call him...from all Ive seen of your posts of him...he would care. And it might also reassure you.
Grrr wish I were there instead...we could find others things to ease the tension.
My heart hurts for you Mary Alice, i wish I knew what to say or how to help but I do love ya and hate that youre hurting.
Always seeking Serenity
Jennifer