I hope you keep going to therapy. It may seem like a long time till the 31st, but it will come quicker than you think. I think you can feel proud of yourself for going to bed and turning away from the harmful thoughts. That's a good sign of how much the therapy is helping. Don't be afraid to speak up to your t about your appointment times, she is there to help you!
Hang in there, you'll make it. You can always pm me if you need to vent some more.