Thank you so much. I've been working on this and things have not been going well at all. I've lost my patience a few times and have been very nasty towards her because of this. The guilt I feel is unbearable, and I just want to apologize but I feel nothing I do is good enough. Also she wont let me even discuss BP with her, she assumes I dont understand, and just cuts me off, no matter how much I try and tell her otherwise. I dont completely understand, and I'm afriad I've done even more to distance us further as of late, and I just want to make things better, as I wouldnt want her giving up on me if the situation were reversed. I can only apologize so many times though, and just need help as to how I can make things better. Obviously I love her otherwise I would've given up awhile ago, and the last we spoke she believes I already have given up, and I just want her to know that's not what I want to do, but again it goes back to her accusing me of knowing nothing about what she's going through, and of course I'm not in her situation so I don't know completely, but I'm trying to understand, that is the important part. Please help me out here, I cant go another night without sleep.