YOU SOUND VERY MUCH LIKE ME A FEW YEARS AGO. I WAS A TERROR TO MYSELF AND OTHERS. I SAW A PDOC AND WAS DIAGNOSED BIPOLAR AND WAS PUT ON DEPAKOTE AND ABILIFY. IAM A MUCH BETTER PERSON TODAY. I DON'T THROW THINGS THROUGH WINDOWS ANYMORE AND MY ANGER IS MORE APPROPRIATE. PLEASE TAKE MY ADVICE AND SEE A PDOC. IT COULD CHANGE YOUR LIFE FOR THE BETTER. GOOD LUCK.