Well forever is an aweful long time... if I thought I had to be on this planet that long, I would be in a ward for sure!!! YUCK!!!

For this life, I really hope I get settled internally very soon - within the next year - or ... well not saying it. All I know is this life has stunk beyond all sense or normal stink. I can't deal with this level of pain long term. And for me, I tend to only go to a doctor if a body part is about to fall off. AKA - I hate going for help of any kind. So in my case, who knows what may happen or what my answer will be.