Hello my name is Jeremiahgirl; I too have bpd and understand the frustration with the dx and with therapist. I am in therapy; 5 days a week. Its an intense setting. Its group but i prefer one to one.

just recently we were told our directer was layed off; not because of the economy but because the company i guess didn't like her. They lost a gold mine there; but they didn't appreciate her kindness and love she had for the clients. We were that clients not patients! Well needless to say I was very upset and ragefull. I still miss my old T. Now the twist is our therapist in group took the directorship!!! which threw us again for a loop. Now I feel like we are being "baby sat" until we get yet another therapist. The constant change has at time caused me to lash out by " self harm" I hit myself with things. So i understand clearly your frustration. What I did was actually "write my old T a letter". Have you tried to write a letter with your feelings listed? I found it to really help me. Another idea is to write it but then tare it up; its just the idea of getting your anger or frustration out.

Well, I do hope the ideas help. another site i know of for bpd is:
www.borderlinepersonality.ca its very similar to this site, check it out when you have a chance. Bye JG+