I have a mood disorder and two kids. I'd let you talk to them but nwither is a great talker, unfortunately they aren't doing much writing . I know that there were a lot of things I couldn't give them thatthey needed and that I wanted to be able to give them. Sometimes I was too sick to see. I know they felt neglected, unseen and bored most of the time and worried a bit of that. that's no way for a kid to feel. They need more patience than I could give them during my depressive periods. Sigh.
My guess is that you had to grow up really fast, and had to watch your step, clean up after everyone and make sure for yourself that your clothes and food and books were ready for school every evening. I really hope that your mom was more capable then that. Anyway, we went through that, and if you need to post, there are plenty more on this site who also understand, dear. I wish you the very best, and hope that you get some good information and support from this site. Take care. Hugs.