Thanks Shezbut for your advise. I work with NHS and the job is very demanding, emotional draining and occassionally have been harrassed/bullied by other 2/3 members of staff also I had been operated twice recently, including announcement of redundancy issues. My negative thoughts are exaggerating everyday, which I don't want to admit to hospital and facing them with their queries about my thoughts and other stuff too. Social Security here is a bit different from USA, I will ask my welfare rights officer soon to get help, that's the first step that I'm going do it, thanks for your tip.