I saw the new psychiatrist here in Ohio today. She was recommended to me by my family doc who is a really close friend of mine. She was fine at first...actually listened... but then accused me of lying and said I will only ever be able to get help in a community health clinic for people with low income because I don't have a job (just moved to Ohio 3 weeks ago. I'm a nurse... I'll find a job). She says I lied because when I called to make the appt the receptionist asked if I had "self destructive behaviors" and I said "not really." Today the shrink asked about the second time I was in the hospital and I told her I had self-harm urges and she asked if I ever acted out on those. I told her I had 2 isolated times in the spring of this year ANd she like flipped out in a demeaning way... said "well you lied on intake and that's not a really poor way to start any relationship with a new psychiatrist. If you lied about that then you probably lied about everything you have said here today. You probably do drugs and drink too (I had already said I didn't)." I tried to tell her that when the receptionist asked me I was at work and wasn't able to tell the full truth at that time. I told her that I said "not really" because they were 2 isolated incidents and not a huge part of my problem. It's not habitual. I told her that I don't lie ANd that I'm not not the type to be going and getting help from a doctor and then not telling them the truth. She said besides the lying I did, my problems are "too big" for her. She said I need a whole team of people in the same office and I really needed to be in therapy because I need a lot of help. I was like, "okay, well thanks for your opinion but I'm not going to a community free clinic (not that there's anything wrong with that, but not the setting I prefer since I have health insurance)for treatment, I'm not a liar, and if you can't handle my issues then I appreciate you being up front about that and I will seek care elsewhere." Then I left....

Ugh... How utterly ticked off am I right now???? I HATE her. What a *****. The worst part is that the waiting list for another shrink is about 2 months away. I have an appt with a therapist on Monday with a different company but that doesn't help when my Lithium levels are screwed up and my thyroid is shutting down from it!!! UGHHH!!!!!!! I'm really upset by this... I just needed someone to vent to since I can't say any of this to the people here. Thanks for "listening!!!!"

How's she going to tell me that I'm a liar?? She of all people should know the sensitive nature of the questions you're asked in a psychiatriats or therapists office. It's not like I was talking to her on the phone for the intake, it was the receptionist. And with my work schedule at the time (8-5) I couldn't call in any more private of a setting. This pdoc is only open 9-4:30. I just feel awful... in Philly my problems "weren't too severe" according to my treatment team. Now suddenly a woman who has sat and talked to me for 45 minutes is going to tell me I need a "whole team of people????????" F- off lady....................