...I think that's a saying...

I don't know what to do... my options are extremes - extreme functioning at school in 1 1/2 weeks, or extreme malfunctioning. I don't have any time left to ease my way through things, I really wish they hadn't discharged me yet, I'm not safe - I might have been able to work myself to a safer place mentally if they'd given me a bit longer... my situation warrants it. But they didn't, and going back now would risk running into the time I'm supposed to be back at school for preparation for the leadership position I'm supposed to fulfil - which would ruin it. Maybe I shouldn't even be taking this position, but I'm committed to it now. I don't know that I should even be trying to push myself through school... but I need it. I can't function without structure, and I don't have transportation for a job, even if I could get one. So I have to go to school if I'm going to live.

I really want to just opt out entirely. I feel so trapped and alone! I wish I had more time.