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AuburnSunshine · Dec 17, 2009, 11:56 PM

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Originally Posted by idontknow13

((((((Megsfun))))) ((((((AuburnSunshine))))))
I was and am a mother who suffers from depression, I understand how hard it must be for the kids, you did not ask to be born to depressed parents...I hope you find people in your path who will comfort you and guide you to a better life...but be assured that your parents love you.

idontknow13 ~

I was a wonderful parent because I knew how I DIDN'T want to parent. I have son with a Down's syndrome who works full time at Home Depot (with full benefits!), lives with another young man, balances his checkbook, does his shopping, etc. He's such an inspiration and I'm SO proud of him!!

On the other hand, my daughter is beautiful with a genius IQ...she's been an international model, a professional dancer and a general all-round pain in the rear. She was spoiled rotten and everything came easily for her.

But beginning when she was 13 she would fly into rages and physically, verbally and emotionally abuse us (her father, brother and me) and her friends. She has put four boyfriends in the hospital...has thrown me down steps, held a butcher knife to my throat, hit me with a car...along with numerous slaps and punches.

However, her emotional and verbal abuse has destroyed me completely. I'm ugly, fat, skinny, stupid, a loser,no one will ever love/want me and on and on...and now I'm MENTALLY ILL! She has totally destroyed and broken me and it's a struggle for me to live each day.

She's taken everything I have and put me in a group home...I have two pair of pants and three tops - all used...long story but it's depressing in itself.

So...she had a wonderful childhood with two parents who adored her. She's more "mentally ill" than many I have come in contact with lately but sees nothing wrong with her behavior. There's nothing wrong with her! But I'm delusional because I don't think I'm mentally ill.

Didn't mean to rant like this but it really does piss me off that I had two depressed parents (in retrospect my father was as well along with a 15 year ritalin addiction that none of us knew about until he almost landed in prison) and was fine until 10 years ago. She had a joyous, spoiled childhood and is a terror now. But she's not sick.

I understand we all have individual lessons to learn during this lifetime...just wish it all seemed more "fair" or "even-steven!"

~ Melanie