Spiritual emergency: and the whole bit about the receptionist asking you personal questions??? Unless you willingly volunteer as much, I would think those questions and answers should only be shared between you and your chosen caregiver in the container of the therapeutic relationship, after trust and intimacy has been established, not 40 minutes after you've first met

Yeah Spiritual... I was thinking that too. When I first called almost 2 months ago the receptionist said the doctor is taking new patients on a "case-by-case" basis. I should have known. My alarm bells were going off at that time but she was recommended to me, it's not like I randomly chose her from a list. Then when the receptionist was questioning me it was like "do you use drugs, do you drink, do you abuse prescription meds, have you ever attempted suicide, have you thought about suicide, do you have any self-destructive behavior..." I was uncomfortable telling her but I responded honestly that I have not attempted suicide but I have had ideations in the past. But those were yes/no questions that didn't need much explanation. When she asked about SI, I had to say "not really" because it's not a central issue at all for me. Something so minor and this pdoc rips my freakin life apart. I know she didn't say it but it sounded like she was trying to say "you're a real screw up and you're way to crazy for me to try to fix. You're unfixable and need to have a whole team of people (like the kind in state institutions) to try to make sense of anything in your head." I know it's unreasonable but i'm really upset. It's already 1:30am. I'm not sleeping tonight. Ugh...

To make matters worse, I managed to get a hold of a T I am seeing on Monday but I heard from a friend of mine who has interactions with her on a collegial basis that she's mean and he thinks we're going to have a personality conflict so this could be a part 2 on Monday.... I HATE THIS!!!!! SCREW IT ALL..........