I can understand what you are feeling too. It took a little looking on the internet to realize that 1 stone = 14 lbs here in the US....given that, I am at 7 stones too. To be honest, I do have problems at this weight....according to my GP, I have no reserve when it comes to dehydration, the heat, or with an illness. I am constantly passing out due to low blood pressure. They got me through the malnutrition at the beginning of the year when I couldn't eat due to the exhaustion & stress & the trauma I went through with the death of my Mother & the home care RN that did the ID theft & threatened me. It took a central line with bags of nutrition to keep me alive at that point while arranging my Mothers funeral & then they put me back into the hospital after the funeral to continue the treatment for another month.
I like the way I look in my cloths finally I can buy things that look really cute....& I can fit into my dressage horse show cloths again (bought them when I was only 6 stones the last time I had problems eating as a reaction to prozac & wellbutrin). They were expensive so there is an insentive to stay at this low weight....except for the passing out & the fact that they can't find blood vessels to put an IV into for the fluids to help with the dehydration & am fighting this summer. I have to admit, it is also embarrassing to shop in the childrens section to find cloths that fit at the age of 52....I go into try them on & say I am buying for my daughter. I have actually gained 5 lbs since the beginning of the year & at that time, I looked like a skeleton with skin....looked horrible. They were trying to get me to go to an eating disorders treatment center but there was no body image problem that is critical which is why it didn't work the last time.
Then comes the stupidity, wearing loose cloths so people don't notice how thin I really am. When I had gained so much weight (12.5 stones) I wore loose cloths so people didn't notice how fat I was. Just can't win.
The best concept for all of us is to weight a weight where we are healty & can live a normal life....without high bloodpressure from being heavy, or low blood pressure & all the problems that come with low weight. But we all know that what is best for us is not always what we really like.
Try to find the point that you are comfortable with & they are right, exercise to get our bodies to look the way we want is much healthier than low weight to get there. I am noticing that the more exercise I do, the more I tend to gain...I'm sure that is where the 5 lbs has come from since I am riding everyday. The more training I do, the more in shape my stomach becomes...it is flat anyway, but can really feel the muscles after a good workout. I know it is better to be healthy than really thin, but I too like thin & hate it when I see the pounds coming back on.....I also like feeling in control of something when all else seems to be out of control.....I know this is a part of the issue too.
I hope you can find a place in your weight where you are both comfortable & satisfied,
Debbie
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