well today has been crazy stress ful and its still not over I sat for three hours in the office of the scocil worker at school I want so bad to just get it over with but she would not let me wich im so greatful for i hasd did reaserch and was planning to die by taking A hole bunch of pills the good news is i didnt i gave them to her she to not loss faith in me I really trust her now because she did not give up And she helped me get in contact with a mobil crisses center wich im so nervose about i have to meet with them tonight at 8 30 but i hate metting people i dont no its scary ITs my only chose though its that or the hospital she said becasue she wants me to be safe through the holidays wich i deffinetly will try to be . it just that life is so hard and im so tierd of it. BUt im still scared to meet with these people What should i do? What if i dont like them? What if i chicken out and dont go? my head is spinning