I understand. I know who I was before. That's not the problem. It's finding out after everything what I am supposed to be now. I know that what I have been thru that caused the depression and all the feelings I have will affect me profoundly. I will never be the old me again. I am just trying just like you to find out who I am supposed to be. It's not easy. Some things will never come back but I know some things are just buried. I just need to find out how to dig them out. Maybe they aren't buried so deep, maybe I just need a safe place to let "me" out again.

Hang in there Hon,
Sending hugs,
Heidu

When one door closes another door opens; but we so often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door, that we do not see the ones which open for us.- Alexander Graham Bell