What started my bulimia? My dad telling me I was fat when I was real young and people as school picking on me... One day I seen a program on bulimia on tv and seen how these girls lost weight doing it and I thought I'd try it. I did and felt release. Haven't purged in awhile, but have felt the urge to MANY times, almost daily.

Also, I've started a new diet, it's a diet my mother is on and has lost 40 pounds on it so far within 6 months. It's a no sugar no white flour diet. You can eat french fries, chips and dip, sugar free candies, meat, most veggies, some fruits, so many things you CAN eat on this diet. I started it almost two weeks ago and have lost 5 pounds so far. I've also started jogging/walking at the track a few miles up the road. I do that 3 times a week and do a few exercises beforehand. My doctor also has me on a couple medications that are supposed to curb my appetite a little. Provigil and Focalin. Am also on Lithium and Abilify and Seroquel, but those don't help with my appetite. So far so good on this diet, I'm hoping I can stay determined enough to make it last.

Also, I'm glad you've developed some healthy eating patterns instead of purging. I really hope you are able to stick to it. I know how damaging and depressing purging can be. One side of you is happy because you're losing weight, while the other half of you is miserable because you don't want to live life this way.