((((Turquoise sea))))))) Sweetie, you are having such a hard time of it. Please try to step back a little bit and get some distance when you feel like this. I know it's so hard to do, but you won't be able to get important things done whaen you are so upset about what is happening with your boyfriend. making decsions and weighing possibilities become so much harder when you're depressed, everything feel like it's not going to work. concentrate on what you both CAN do instead of what you can't change. Hang in there. Huggggs, and I'll be thingking of you.