moonrise- I loved your post...and if my kids werent literally eating up every dime we have, Id start up that therapy fund...for all 6 of them.

I am going to do that. I think I have done it....send them somewhere else for the minute. It is something that has come up in therapy- that I never have alone time. Never. I almost always have someone on top of me, quite literally. I cant go to a room alone. This had come up in therapy with my kids with dt, too. I need a breather and never get it unless I am out of the house. My H helps, but not as much as I believe he should. As long as I do everything, he is happy with that And that came up in therapy with him. He changes, helps more and then reverts back to not doing as much. I dont know, if someone else was in my house all the time and saw what goes on, they might say he helps a lot. There is just a lot to do here and it takes a lot of time and effort.

Skeksi- If my parents were even a fraction as aware of their behavior as I am...... I might be a different person. But why go there.....