((((((((((((Caroline)))))))))))))))))
I know how you are feeling. I lost my grandma almost five years ago...really seven because the last two years of her life she was in the last phase of alzhiemers (sp?) disease and she wasn't the same person I knew growing up. I understand wanting her back...I want my grandma back to...It makes me mad to think she won't be there for certain events in my life but then I have to remember all the good times we had together and be thankful for the time I did get to spend with her...They say time will heal...it may heal in some ways but never completely. We will always remember and miss those that we loved dearly...so hang in there I know its tough...here's another hug just for you ((((((Caroline)))))).....thinking of you......