Bebop, lol....didn't even notice it...that was great. We do get into our own worlds.

Artist, I have been married to him for 30 years of a marriage that never should have been in the first place. We got married when he was 23 & I was 22. He just graduated from college & I still had several years to go. I was up front in what I expected in a marriage & had no intention of giving up my goals for anyone....told him if he thought I would to just "go away". He was very immature...who isn't at 23? The only problem was that I expected him to grow up as he got older....it never happened & to this day, he is just as irresponsible & childish as he was the day I married him. He wants everything handed to him on a silver platter & gets pissy when he doesn't get what he wants....saying that the world is in control of his world....IMO, he never has even tried to take any control of his own life. Oh this is just the tip of the iceberg as to why I don't even want to waste any more time on him. He knows the buttons to push on me that tend to leave me in depression....Yes, I own the fact that it is my reaction to him, but when you know how you are going to effect someone & you go ahead & do it?????? & then if I get irritated & an argument happens & I get pushed again, he feels justified to hit, saying it was just his reaction to me. I am just plane sick of this in my life & need out....I don't want to waste any more time....even though it has been 30 years & yes, there have been some ok times, but those few times aren't worth the others. I haven't said much about this here...it seems to be too personal to bring the crappy details into the public, so this is where I need to end talking about my problems. The bottom line is that it isn't working & I don't want to do anything more to try & make it work.

Intimacy is more than sex...it's also just being very close to each other....not gonna happen here. Didnt mean to take over your post. That is why I said it takes both to make it happen & if the both of you want to rekindle your pasts you will be able to...with the right communication which may also take therapy too.

Debbie