Im so sorry to hear about your mum. Im sure she loved you,like every mother loves their children. It seems as we get older they dont show it as much. It must have been hard being sick yourself.Do you have councelling? I have had councelling for the last 6 weeks and Im finding that It is helping,also the forum.Your daughter is most proberly right about her no thinking clearly,my friend had trouble,her cancer was on the brain .She made it quite clear to me how she felt about death and her life a few weeks before she died. What I get most upset about is that she kept telling me she was sorry, like it was her fault . She knew everyone would be hurt and I would be lost without her.I did not want her blaming herself. I really feel for your loss of our mum. Im not that close to my mum but if I lost her I dont know what I would do. Im also sorry you lost a friend, yes life is so unfair somtimes.But I try and think of the good things I have two beautiful grandsons that keep me strong,and I try and spend as much time with them and my children as possible. That I feel is part of my therapy. Again Im sorry for your loss,spend as much time with your family as you can. Life is to short.The loss of my friend made me see that. Take care.