Thanks Sky I never really thought of him as a control freak before.. you might have hit on something there. The papers and all are with the courts now.... so don't have to see him again if that's what I choose.

JM thanks for the support. I am doing okay. Went for a walk with a wonderful friend this morning on the beach. It was really nice.

I am waiting for him to realise that (2 ppl no 3). When he does then it will be my choice as to what we do. Am not planning on contacting him until I am sure that I don't want him anymore. Its weird. I have forgiven him but he hasn't forgiven himself and wont as long as he is still trying to find happiness with her.
I am eating a bit more (had a chicken salad today...so far) and really when my blood sugar drops I do feel worse, not to mention that I have had to buy all new clothes LOL - I look unhealthy right now and that's not how I want to be.

I am on top of my feelings today - when I typed the letter to get opinions I didn't cry... He's making the mistake of his life. Either he loves me or he loves her - can't have it both ways.