I am so sorry for the loss of you dear and sweet freind she sounds so awesome..I believe shes in a better place in my belief system....Sadly that leaves all the ones she touched with her love like you..in pain a pain she no longer has to feel....I will pray for you and her family....In the meantime as you heal, maybe you could do all you can to help make things easier for her kids and family...just be there when you can and cry with them...maybe share a meal and some talk ..I know when I have lost loved ones its the time well past the furneral that nobody seems to be around and by then the shock wears off and you need people more than ever...Also for you and the family Hospice often offers free group meetings to help one another with the grieving process, maybe you can call them.
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