My Darling Mary ALice,
again I say I wish I was with you, I want you to be not hurting yourslef anymore.. I want to be with you just like Jenn..I wish we lived closer, so you would have someone that you could actually call on the phone when you get like this, besided your T.. you need an outlet, that will always be there for you, and I mean truly be there for you.
Online means comfort, to you. Bring that into your life more often..
Stop with the drinking, that will only make things worse than they already are..
I can handle the fact that you cutt.. I used to, and I have to keep telling myself.. Do i want my child to see these and ask why does mommie have scares all over her body???

I see the punjuctures of the needeles on Breanna, all the time, and I cry everytime I see them, and the scars from the tubes she had to have in her at all times when she was first born, and all I want to do is start cutting agin.. I have not cut on myslef in over a year, but I know write now, it would be so easy, but then again, my blood would pour, out and I may not be able to stop it, because of the asprin I have to take daily...

Please Please Love yourself enough to stop, or try to stop..

I know you have the strength to stop.. you have before Right,, Cant you do it again. .I know going home puts more stress on you, but Alex needs you in his life, and so do you need him in your life..

<font color=purple>The way to love anything is to realize that it might be lost.
- G.K. Chesterton
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