It just seems so hopeless sometimes. I nnow understand how much I actually hurt myself. I use to act like it was no big deal. I couldn't feel the damage cause I did it so much. Now I quit doing it on my wrist. The scars are always going to be there and I don't feel bad about adding more. I can't move the one hand llike the other and everytime I move it my wrist tingles. It just is so calming. So far(besides that) it hasn't made my problems worse. Sure it covers my problems...but it doesn't feel like it makes them worse. I sometimes wonder about getting rid of my blade, but I can't get myself to leave the house without it. As long as I know it is there I can make it through the day. Keeping it with me is what my solution was to quit cutting it everyday. I am trying to get better and now I sorta see your point...after typing this...yeah I was wrong...maybe it does make problems worse...but it takes away as many as it makes. I'm sorry. Thank you guys for being here. It is nice knowing I have someone I can talk to about these things.