Quote:
Originally Posted by BlueMoon6
There is always someone who needs constant attending to.
|
Blue, this can be really stressful and it really concerns me.
Having a little downtime always helps me see more clearly and approach situations with more patience. I hope that you aren't feeling as if you need to in some way make up for what was stolen from you as a child. Could your H or a friend possibly take the kids for a few hours so you can have the chance to breathe?
Quote:
Originally Posted by BlueMoon6
I had to talk to myself and realize I was being triggered by their behaviour. And the truth is, they were bored, any little kid would have been bored because we were there too long, but I was feeling out of control and ignored. But I did not act on anything. I was patient and we made it through the game and went out with the team/parents afterward.
|
Sounds like you did a great job! I always fought with fears of having my parenting skills judged by others out in public, but I would try to tell myself that I had to do what was right for us. It's always tough when the waiting time for an event is extended like that.
Quote:
Originally Posted by blueMoon6
And even with lunch plans, I have to bring my 2 yo. She is usually occupied at lunch, but if she is not, its not worth the effort to get together with my friends. It can turn into more stress.
|
Well, I certainly don't want you feeling any extra stress if we do lunch sometime soon. What is it that you think makes you feel stressed? Is it what I talked about above? I can definitely relate to that. Maybe we can think of something to do together with her that will allow you to just enjoy the time. Hmm...
Quote:
Originally Posted by BlueMoon6
Yes, I can yell and throw things. It isnt an extended thing, but they know I am out of control for the moment. It does feel like blowing off steam, too. I dont cry, but I have cried afterwards when I see the damage I have done.
|
Would a punching bag help? I can't help wondering if some of the extra stress you've been feeling recently is not only due to the discomfort from intense therapy, but also from some part of you that needs tending to. Maybe a part that needs to go and do something for just you. Just a thought that ran through my mind...
Quote:
Originally Posted by BlueMoon6
I want to bring something up in therapy (Im seeing ftt wed this week). Im sure how to describe what I want to bring up. I feel like I need something "interactive" in terms of my feelings about my mother. I did psychodrama group for 10 yrs. It was a very active, experiential type of therapy. I think it has a way, for me, of going around my fears, kind of like going in the back door to get to my feelings. I dont know if ftt has any experience in "active" (I dont know what word to use for this kind of therapy) type of therapy. I am a little afraid to ask....
|
Why afraid? Sounds like an interesting idea.