I'm so tired of not fitting in any where I go. I don't fit in the "normal" world.When I go to support sites I don't fit in there either. I'm like a hopeless cause,a missfit. I've spent 10 years trying to make people understand me,and no one ever does. The void I feel is never satified for very long before it awakens again. And its an intolerable feeling,knowing that no matter how hard I try i will never be "cured" or understood,that I'd rather be a child then face reality and the real world. I'd spend my life in a psychward if I could. Meds don't work,can't afford them anyway,Therapy never got me anywhere. I just live in my head and wait and wait until I finaly fall asleep so I don't have to think anymore. Everyday is another struggle to get through and I'm sick of it. I'm sick of trying to do something that will never happen,I'm not getting better.