(((((((((((((( Patty )))))))))))))))) (good to see you, I havent seen you around lately)

I think that best you can do is to keep sending your love, hopefully eventually she will get the message, that you care very much for her.
Getting out more really might be a good idea, maybe it will keep your mind off things. Sending you lots of warm hugs I am sorry that you are struggling with this.