(((((Blue))))),

Yeah, it does sound like you're doing too much in therapy all at once, too quickly. I agree that you've got to slow down, take 1 day at a time, and either call ftt today and tell her what's going on, or be sure to talk about it on Wednesday.

All this stuff is coming up for you and it's going to turn out well in the end, I know that!!!

I used to be critical of Moms whose kids had tantrums in the grocery store. That was before I had my kids and they did the same thing! Kids are kids, not grown ups, and they will act like what they are. It's not that we are bad parents! You are a wonderful parent, and I think your kids are so understanding because they know that. They are showing such love and concern for you. They will be all right.

Have you told your 13 year old that you don't feel well, that you're geting help, and that she shouldn't worry about you? Maybe she (and all of them) just need to hear that. She's on the verge of adulthood--13 yr. olds can be very mature, but still feel like children. I'm also impressed with how you dealt with your 15 yr. old.

Hang in there. Call ftt if you need to. She's been helpful to you on the phone already. That's what she's there for.