Dear Heidu,

Like some of you told me a while ago, you can't blame yourself for loosing your best friend.

I was backstab by my best friend, which I think and feel was cruel. Because, like you, I wouldn't had hurt her. I know you are asking yourself questions after questions and you can't found any answers. I think this is the worst part. If you could at least have one answer to this "why". Maybe "time" will give you that answer.

Sometime people move on in different path in their life and don't reliased it themself until they are on it. And because it is better for them, they choose not to take a step back. They leave people behind them that asked themself questions. It's not that they want to hurt those people, they just have to move on and they can not take those persons with them. They choose not to explain. It's just something they have to do to grow.

Heidu, you haven't done anything wrong. Maybe your friend choose another path. It would be better for you, If she could explain this to you. Maybe she is scare of hurting you. Which she does anyway. I know and I understand you need someone close to you in your life, specially because it is not going the best between you and your husband and you are in a different country. You feel lost and hurt. Just give it time and see. Sometime sweety, we have to move on without the persons we would love to bring with us, because they had choosen to not stand by our side.

I don't know if your friend is going to answer you or not. But I know you are a loving person and you will eventually found someone else. But for that, you are going to have to seek for it and not isolate yourself. Sometime, my dear special one, people give away the most precious thing, without knowing it.

I'm glad I have met you. You bring a bit of sunshine in my life, even if you are far. I thank you for it. I wish I could take your pain away. I know it hurt.

Love you
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