You have no reason to be sorry, icky. What we have is an addiction, an addiction that sometimes is worse than drug addiction, and that's pretty darned strong. Instead of being sorry, be HOPEFUL. Hopeful that things can change if you put your mind to it and things CAN get better. I've heard the saying, "It can only get better from here", well, if you've hit rock bottom, then things can start getting better if you want them to... If not, then move that rock to the side and keep digging a little deeper. You get what I'm saying? Things can always get worse, but if you want help and you want to feel normal and you want a life that's better than what you're living, you can make it happen.

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