I just wanted to say that last night was very bad for me. I wanted to cry my body ached all over and the noise around me was driving me mad. I feel it was a major depression. I just thought if I could get somewhere totally quiet and alone and dark, but comfortable and just be; maybe I could just go to sleep and wake up feeling better. I've be diag. with bipolar and ADD, but I've felt just about every mental emotion there is: anxiety, social anxiety, phobias, ADD, depression, chronic fatigue, mania (which I really like because I can accomplish so much; as long as it doesn't get me into trouble), OCD, Starving to be thin, you know the perfect thing(Everything I do has to be perfect and any less is failure to me). Anyway, now is the depression. I hope this is a place where I can come and vent. I'm not sure which mental board to post on. Do I post on the one that relates to what I'm feeling at the moment or the one I'm diagnosed in or what. I want to know if sometimes the outside noise gets to others-like the kids screaming, and the TV blarring, and the phone ringing, and the refrigerator running, and water dripping,. To the point that enough is enough. And how do you escape it before you start attacking everyone, yet the laundry still has to be done ,and the kids still have to be taken care of and the hubby still has to watch the game as loud as possible and whoop and holler. This is when I want to run, but I can't, and I want to cry, but I can't because my family will see me, and my hubby thinks this whole psych thing is a crock anyway ,so I have to put up this front. I usually mentally drift to some euphoria I make up so I can make it, or use earplugs or headphones. Lately nothing is working. Somebody, please respond...I've got tons of people around me, but nobody understands. Thanks!