I am a new member, but your subject line intrigued me. I am recovering from anorexia nervosa and have been battling E.D. since August of 2004. I wonder every day when I will be "normal" again every morning when I wake up. Things will get easier once you begin seeing someone and expressing yourself in a more healthy way. It helped me so much to vent and I realized that food and calories and my body image wasn't controlling my life as much. I wish you the best.