(((perpetuallysad)))
I'm sorry that you're often having such horrible nightmares!

Are you working with a T at all? If so, are you discussing emotional issues? Have you talked with any doc's about your nightmares, and what might be done to help you?
It's worth mentioning if you are frequently having nightmares. Some medicines actually cause frequent horrible nightmares.
Hope I've given you ideas to think about and get help with. Best wishes to you!