Chompers this rings so true. My fear of communicating in a low is the actual cause of a lot of problems. One of my friends has told me how frustrated and hurt she becomes that I don't or rather can't contact them or answer the phone. This is probably especially confusing for them after a hypomanic period when I'm constantly calling/texting/emailing/socialising. When the crash comes, the retreat is on and I can't face anyone. I relate to being unable to meet MH meetings, and then feeling so useless afterwards. Horrible horrible place to be, alone and feeling unable to get help. So grateful I found this forum.