I don't believe your 100% bad and I will keep away from you if you want me too after this one post. I have made marks before my parents do not know so they won't get hurt. But still I've stopped thats the important thing. You deserve to love and it can get easier getting rid of the emeny as I call it the object your using to do this with yourself. Scared is ok, coward is fine too. If your not sure why do it at all? Your not the bad one or good one at all. Just yourself... I not sure what you are trying to say. But it sounds like to me, you want to cut but not sure. If I was you I wouldn't do it, because then I know that I will feel worse after... =(