First, sorry to have been gone for so long (was it long? It felt long) My computer and I were having a bit of a disagreement about proper behavior. A good hard drive scrub and some extra memory have improved it's disposition. If only I could do the same for myself.

I've been taking risperidone for a little over a month now. It seems to be helping with the paranoid and obsessive thoughts but lately I've noticed more and more irritability. It's bad enough that the week before THAT time of the month makes be pissy, but now it's almost constant, and increases from there with PMS. This is NOT the way I want to be! I grew up with a dad who was easily triggered to anger, and now I'm starting to be just like him. I can't tell if this is just "me" after the meds control the Bipolar, or if this is a mood that is taking center stage now that others are out of the way, or if it's just a side effect. I couple of months ago I tried weening off meds because I was tired of feeling like I'm living in a pill box, each pill a wall to block one emotion or another. Now it's happening all over again. I get one problem worked on, and another arises. It can't possibly be right to have to take a pill for each mood, can it? I swear, Bipolar just doesn't seem to describe what I go through emotionally adequately. This isn't 2 moods swinging back and forth, this is mood Whack-a-mole, where any mood, separate and distinct from each other, can pop up at any time, maybe more than one at a time, and the pills are the hammer that pounds them back down. But they keep coming back up again! I really don't want to play this game anymore. The prizes suck, like weight gain and flushing and possible liver damage. It's also expensive, between ℞ costs and doctor copays.

Anyone else taking risperidone or another anti-psychotic, and noticed increased irritability?