That makes so much sense. And when my younger parts feel ignored or not having a voice, then I dont have much peace.

I am relating to so much of what you just wrote- in the sense that the younger part of me that wants to express herself, feels like she cannot. And has not. She does not feel safe and cared for at all and that she will be heard. Even though I am saing all of this about wanting her to have a voice, at the same time, I dont. I want her to shut up. SIgh....and the thought of drawing trama stuff terrifies me. Terror. I will just draw color.

I wrote out a whole PM to you and LOST it. ouch! A lot was about my feelings about deep color. And how I used to paint and draw, but I dont want the adult me involved as much as that right now.