as above.

my big crash & burns happen around xmas usually. actually, they start quite a bit earlier (usually around end of october?) so i'm actually pretty thankful to have made it this far without too much distress.

of course, i have to go about stuffing this up by going off my meds because of my trip to japan. i'm still happy with that decision, but i am starting to feel the first tiny bits of depression pulling at me again. bit grouchy about that. more grouchy about withdrawal though.

which takes me to withdrawal. ugh, i don't recommend anyone ever comes off Parnate, it has been the crappiest past 2 weeks of my life. i tried to get in touch with pdoc, but did say only call if you're free. of course, he didn't call and i went to my GP instead, who doesn't know much about the meds i'm on. withdrawal is subsiding (and i had my first taste of soy sauce again today, YUM!!) but i'm worried i'm still going to be dealing with this on my trip. my friends are a bit upset that i'm going off meds (but they would have been equally upset if i had stayed on them) so i'm hesitant to let them know about the withdrawal stuff, just because i dont want to rock the boat. of course, if i dont let them know, they could be left wondering wtf is going on. since we're all sharing a room, it's not like i'm gonna have much privacy.

just a bit worried. not sure what to do. if pdoc was around i would make him fix me (he's on hols now though). austin-t is a psychologist and doesn't really get the meds thing. GP freaks out when i mention side effects, because some of them really are quite serious.

i dont know. i feel like ****. just wanted to whinge somewhere, really.