"I should never have had those drinks last night. Alcohol seems to make my anxiety MUCH worse and I had all kinds of lucid nightmares and panic attacks off and on throughout the night."

"Just wanted to share this and would LOVE some input, suggestions, advice, etc."

My suggestion: do not drink alcohol. Does not matter if you drink every day or not, does not matter if you feel drunk when you drink or not. Consider the possibility that you should not drink alcohol.

Get into a recovery program. Inpatient if possible. Go to meetings religiously. Get books on recovery and read. Work the program, if you won't do 12 step, find another method, there are many.

Do not drink alcohol. No excuses. Give this an honest attempt, take it one minute at a time, one day at a time. Clean out all the alcohol from your house and do not buy anymore.

Sarah