Tons of to you!!

The others gave awesome advice in getting some real world help as soon as you can by calling your T or another form of support Tryingtobeme.

It's hard when the ones that are supposed to love us the most are the ones that hurt us the most with hurtful words. I was always told it was my fault and I should never have been born. I was even told once it was ultimately my fault my mother died. People are cruel in their own mental illness sometimes I think....I have yet to figure out to this day why some of us seek help and support and others just don't seem to even realise they have their own issues that need to be dealt with.

It's hard to get past those hurtful words...but you CAN do it!!! You ARE not to blame for anyone else's problems OR issues. You can control your thought process, not theirs. I learned a long time ago that when someone tells me something like that, I go into my mind and say to myself, " I'm sorry you feel that way". I then turn around and leave. I have, however, noticed as I get older I actually SAY them to some people now!!! It's rather comical to see the reaction, as they aren't getting the usual reaction from you.

Try to stay strong.... We are here for you when your ready to chat or vent and just let off some steam.