I spoke to my boyfriend about it and he said his family doesn't notice things like that. I don't know, I just don't believe it.

MattC- As of now I'm not seeing a therapist but I've thought about it. I'm not sure if I have an ED but when I read through posts on here, I realize that a lot of people feel exactly like I do. I do obsess over my weight and the way I look. It consumes my thoughts and has for most of my life. I'll restrict and obsess over what I eat but if I don't lose enough I get very upset and then eat whatever. I feel like I'll be fat all my life and that's how I'm meant to be. It's a cycle I can't break.

My boyfriend tries to help me feel better about myself but it doesn't work. I get mad at him b/c I feel like he's just saying things to be nice.