i think what pegasus said is very wise. it would probably be best not to get married to anyone at this point. you aren't sure either guy is right for you and i think that is honest. i don't get the sense you really are in love with mike. but josh doesn't sound like a mature, healthy person. marriage is a life long commitment so please don't rush into anything because then your child will just end up from a broken home if it doesn't work out.

btw, last night i was watching wuthering heights on netflix. it sounds a bit like your situation of being in love with one guy who has a poorer, unstable background and then the offer of marriage to a really nice, stable rich guy who she wasn't totally in love with. i didn't get to see the whole thing because i used up my minutes for the month and they've changed the ending from the book so i don't know what happens. ah