Hi, First time doing this. I've been married 31 years. My family is my life. I always thought my husband thought I was the best thing since white bread. He treated me that way. He was a family man very into our girls and me. Our girls thought he was superman. One of my sister - in -laws once told me my brother had told her he wanted their marriage and relationship to be like ours. My husband was my best friend. I got cancer, it was a really bad time. I kept my life as normal as possible and as easy as I could for my husband. He never went to any of my treaments, never had to wash a dish, clean the house etc. Life stayed pretty much the same way it had been except I was bald!! He cheated on me with someone we knew. I said okay, it's been rough, he was seeking comfort, let's fiqure this out. Our girls were devasted so was I but I wanted to be understanding. Then I found out he'd told people I was "out" of my head, and basically was letting everyone believe how hard it wa for him because he had to do EVERYTHING for me. Big Big lie. THEN the woman he was cheating with told me she wasn't the first. He ended up confessing to cheating on me with three different women over the last ten years. One thing led to another, he wanted to work things out. I was EVERYTHING to him he was an idiot etc. etc. So, 31 years, two kids, a lifetime..I said okay. Hes been great, he's been nicer, doing the flower bit, asking how I am feeling when before he said he couldn't "handle" it. etc. I keep telling myself to give it time, I'ld heal we'd get by this, but it's been 3 years since I first found out and I have no idea how I feel about him. When he touches me I feel nothing, absolutely nothing. How can I get past this.?