On December 29th, it will be the 11 year anniversary of one of my good friend's passing away. He committed suicide, we were only 13 years old, and it hit me hard, and that's when I first really felt depression. It still hits me hard and on the 29th, I usually can not function properly and all I want to do is cry. Does it every get any better? Is there anything that I can do to try and make it better? I know that my friend wouldn't want me to be so sad, especially after all these years.