Thank you for your quick responses. They helped a lot just knowing you all responded when it is 3 am here. What also feel better was just that you gave me a pat on the back for completing a task I set for myself and reminding me it is about the babysteps. I am glad you are here. I do not feel alone. I also have not been writing in my journal for the last 2 months...since breaking up with somebody really bad for me. I wonder why it is that we sometimes fall the hardest for the ones that are not right for us. I am sure the depression and the end of that relationship were very closely related. Next task...journaling.