Pixy,

Thank you for your words of support while you are the one needing the support.

I can really agree with Sleeps, people are there at the funeral, but after, there is NO ONE, & it seems like that is really when we need people support. Since you are close with the family, maybe you could all go to the grief group that the hospice care provides. It could be good for both of you.

Yes, I have had psychologists for years. The one I had at the end of my mothers life, when my mother was at home with the home care RN, didn't believe what I was going through with the ID theft & the threats from the RN (my pdoc didn't believe me either). When I was in the hospital it was because I was so exhausted from going through the trauma from the RN & being with my mother 24/7.

While I was in the hospital, my GP made sure I had the hospital's pdoc & psychologist see me every day...it was during that time when my Mom actually died & they were trying to work with me on that, but had in their minds that I was anorexic & losing weight due to that. It took awhile after that when I realized that it was really dealing (or not really dealing) with the trauma that was causing the nausea & weight loss. At that point, no one wanted to touch that kind of treatment. They didn't mind the simple anorexia but some other cause????? I finally went back to a psychologist I had 8 years ago. She is really good at helping me work through the trauma stuff which constantly haunts me & is working through the feelings I have about my Mother. Between those things, it seems like it has been impossible to even feel any grief so far......I do miss her, but there is a lot of stuff inside that just hasn't come out yet.

I have found that my dogs & horses are what have given me the most love & comfort. They are always there for me & I have to have a clear mind when working around my huge horses so there isn't room for thinking about what I have just gone through.

Debbie