Hi Trish........my head hurts this afternoon (gee, I wonder why....lol). And yes,it is better to laugh about it then get more depressed.

The drinking will have to stop when I am home, which means the cutting will get worse as I will have more stress at home. Alex doesn't see the cuts, they are on my upper thighs and it's not summer, so they aren't normally visible. The other ones on my arms have bothered him and I told him they were because I acted stupid.......he didn't ask anything else.

I'm sorry about Breanna........and the amount of pain it causes you to feel. I hate marks or bruises on Alex - thank goodness those are temporary.

[sigh] my day off today and I get phone calls every hour and a half from him checking up on me to see what I "am doing". Or in his thinking, who's here with me and what I am doing with someone else...gets old. Told him to stop calling me constantly, and that provoked a "why, would I be interrupting something?" Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

You take care of yourself, please. I'm managing - not the best way lately, but the only way that is working for me right now.

xxoxoxo

Mary Alice