ALl I knwo is if you say you're going to commit suicide , then theres the chance of the hospital. It was always a fear of mine as well...especially when I was with my kids. I was sure they would think I was crazy and lock me away forever lol(not funny, Iknow) And my kids needed me more so I was very very careful what I said.
My advice is tell the Dr exactly what you said to us here. Tell him how you're feelign emotionally...why...if you know...and also your past exprience with antidepressants and not feeling that they workedfor you.There are so many options anymore...maybe it was the one you had that didnt work for "you". You knwo best hwo you feel. If you feel this is an issue..hoenstly..then yes...Id explore the options. WHile you're online do some research I find knowledge is very powerful.
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