Hi BeautifullyMistaken

I have been staying with my parents (where I was before we bought the house) and I have been good. Today I move back up to the house as we have relatives coming to stay a mum's. I'm not coping with it really, it's a sad day where I am back to crying, I think that it's mainly the unheaval and also that it's this time of year.

I have had some contact with him but not much, just text messages. I do want to be his friend as he does know everythng about me and has seen me through some really tough times in my life and I have done the same for him.
He seems to be awkward (his word) at the moment with me, I don't know why but maybe it's just that he's in the first stages of the break up still and doesn't have anyone that he can talk to about it.
I have all the wonderful people here plus a few REALLY wonderful friends that are keeping me busy and letting me talk about it if I need to.
I love him today. Yesterday I didn't and tomorrow I just don't know.
The meds seem to be working and I am eating again which is great plus getting a lot of exercise and going on shopping sprees LOL

I hope that you are well, not too stressed about the festive season.

It's a difficult time of year I think, everyone wants you to be happy but right now I am just being myself and if I feel sad then I am allowing it, when I feel happy then I am in wonder by it all.

Thanks for your post. I really needed to get all of this out and it helps so much!